Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Heal Yourself


With permission, I share this posting from a treasured mentor:

"My thoughts on the tragedy in Newtown:

My heart hurts for the parents who have lost their children. Sunday night, Obama shared my favorite quote about parenting: 'when you decide to have a child, you make the decision to have your heart forever walk around outside your body.' Their loss is more profound than we will ever know. I pray for their courage.

This is a clarion call to all of us.

We are impacting our children, every last one of us and it's time we woke up to the epidemic that is sweeping our nation. Too many parents are distracted, too many single moms and dads don't have the support they need, too many adults have not healed their own wounds and so they pass their damage on to their children like karmic sludge. We subject our children to a culture dominated by fear (news, video games, movies) and then wonder what the dang problem is. The problem is not "out there", it's "in here".

          Here’s my wish for us all, that we:

Wake up, out of our comfortably numb state, and start to really get the horrifying legacy we are leaving with our children and on this planet.
Feel the pain we’ve been avoiding, the pain of our inner child that didn’t get what he or she needed and love that part with powerful conviction, with the ferocity of a mama or papa bear. Let go of any desire to be driven to the next distraction, drama or adrenaline rush and just be with yourself.
Take fierce, bold action, from a place of wholeness.
If you want to make an impact and not have these children (and their protectors) die in vain, then commit to healing you, to healing your own inner child. From there, you will know the exact perfect action to take. Anything before that will be saving and saving never works. It’s rooted in imbalance.
I pray you will let this tragedy be the wake up call you needed to make the difference you came here to make with your life.
Share with me your thoughts, feelings and ideas about this tragedy, the state of our disconnectedness in our country and anything else you feel you want to share….even if it’s simply an “amen sister”.
So much love,
Kristin Sweeting Morelli"
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Tuesday, December 11, 2012

What the Heart Knows


“What the Heart Knows”
Rev. Alison Longstaff, Dec 11th, 2012
New Church Live Christmas Vespers
Bryn Athyn, Pennsylvania
Arcana Caelestia 30; Luke 1:39-47

Luke 1:39-47 At that time Mary got ready and hurried to a town in the hill country of Judea,  where she entered Zechariah’s home and greeted Elizabeth.  When Elizabeth heard Mary’s greeting, the baby leaped in her womb, and Elizabeth was filled with the Holy Spirit.  In a loud voice she exclaimed: “Blessed are you among women, and blessed is the child you will bear!  But why am I so favored, that the mother of my Lord should come to me?  As soon as the sound of your greeting reached my ears, the baby in my womb leaped for joy. Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!”
 And Mary said: “My soul glorifies the Lord   and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior

Arcana Caelestia 30. When someone is being regenerated, their spirituality develops as follows: First they start to learn about spiritual things, which they have then in their memory. This is “fact-based” or “rules-based” spirituality. Then, after they have thought about things for awhile and have lived with the ideas for awhile they develop a deeper understanding, which is theory-based spirituality. Finally, a true spirituality comes from the heart, which is genuinely loving.

Our text tonight is from Mary’s Song of Praise, also known as “The Magnificat.”  We find it in the Gospel of Luke right after Elizabeth greets Mary.  The gospel of Luke is a gospel of contrasts, of rich and poor, of priests and peasants, of men and women, of the educated and the working class.  Tonight I wish to focus in particular on what Mary represents.  Mary, the young, poor, peasant woman, yet in whom the son of God is conceived and to whom God incarnate can be born.
            Mary represents the feminine, or heart side of our inner nature.  Mary is the side of life that is typically discounted, pushed aside, and silenced in our culture.  Mary is the quiet whisper of our heart, especially when it challenges the status quo. Mary represents the stuff we just know without being able to explain.   Mary is the mystical, the unscientific, the stuff that we are afraid to trust, yet the part of us that somehow knows what is going on well before it makes sense.           
Let’s look once more at the gospel story.  Again and again it is the unsophisticated, marginalized characters that accept the angels’ wonderful news and welcome the divine immediately, while the privileged and educated and powerful come around much more slowly.  Zacharias –as an old man and a priest--- represents our intellectual side.  He struggles to accept the news of John’s birth.  In fact, he asks the angel for proof.  He wants evidence.  His proof comes in his being rendered speechless until after the miracle is accomplished.  In contrast, young, uneducated Mary simply asks for reassurance from the angel. She then moves right into acceptance and ultimately sings the song of praise which contains tonight’s text.  
Then, when Jesus is born, it is the shepherds who first see the angels and hear the good news.  Shepherds at that time in Judean culture were the bottom of the pecking order: poor, uneducated, and the least respected among the working class. Yet the good news comes first to them!  Something about them makes them ready to receive it before any other group.  And they respond instantly and with full acceptance, rushing to see the newborn baby. In contrast, the Wise Men---representing our intellectual side---see a remote star, and have to figure out how to travel the tremendous distance required to find the newborn.  They even have to stop and ask for directions---it takes a Wise Man to have the humility to stop and ask for directions….  In any case, the Wise Men do finally arrive, bearing tremendous gifts, but not until LONG after the shepherds do.   And isn't it interesting that the shepherds brought only the gift of their presence, and it was enough?
Later, when Jesus rises, who comes first to the tomb?  It is the women of the story, with courage and tears.  The men---remember, that means the intellectual side of you and me, not men ---that side of us takes longer to figure out and accept what has happened.  Doubting Thomas represents the last hold-out in you and me against trusting anything not evidence-based.  He is not wrong.  He is still one of the disciples!  He is part of the story.  But yes, we are blessed when we can trust and see and follow more quickly than fearful, doubting Thomas.
Please remember, I am not saying that women are better or smarter than men.  Each gender has strengths and gifts, and each gender has weaknesses, the same way the two hemispheres of our brain have strengths and weaknesses, and the two sides of our human nature has strengths and weaknesses.   Besides, not all women fit the classic female stereotype, nor do all men fit the classic male stereotype.  Praise the Lord! We need these boundary-bending examples to keep us from getting too comfortable with easy categories. 
It is not our fault that we struggle to find balance between our thinking side and our feeling side.  And it certainly doesn't help if we make one side bad and the other side good, or one side better and the other side worse.  Both are good.  Both are gifts.  Both are beautiful and necessary for our regeneration.  Even the parts of our nature that won’t fit easily into head or heart categories are gifts too.  Never forget it.
I can easily find stories from my personal life when my heart rushed ahead and left my intellect struggling along behind, just like we see in so much of the Christmas narrative.  An example: When I go to my alternative health care provider---my naturopath or my energy worker---I leave my intellect in the car.   The scientific, logical side of my nature can’t make sense of the flakey, illogical “unscientific” stuff that happens in those offices.  “What do you mean, ‘energy work?’” my inner Spock wants to know.  The intuitive, experiential, or the “Mary” half of my nature knows that these forms of care make a difference---often a profound difference---to my health whether or not there are scientific explanations of “how” that satisfy my left brain.  So my intellect stays in the car, or it goes in a closet and puts on loud music.  My intellect just doesn't understand that flakey stuff and can't watch.  Do you have similar examples from your life?
But before we believe that this scenario is the only legitimate one, I can tell stories of my intellect being super clear on something while my heart is still struggling along behind.  An example might be how I feel terrified of spiders despite knowing with my whole head that they are much tinier than me and not even poisonous in this area of the world.  They are completely benign!  But my emotions when I encounter a spider remain fairly primitive.  Because it isn't about what I believe.  Pre-rational emotion just takes over. It is all kind of funny --- once I’m done shrieking and can come down off the chair.
The point is that this imbalance between our intellect and feeling-side is normal.  It is how we are made.  It is not our fault.  It really is rather funny, one we get over stressing about it.  And it is God’s promise to us that one day these two very different sides of our natures will be united.  One day we will become so integrated in our loving and our thinking that we scarcely notice the negotiations between the two sides, let alone find the discrepancies so comically wide.
For tonight, it might just help us to remember that when God comes to us be born anew, there will probably be a big part of us that has no idea what is going on and wouldn't believe it if it knew.  The same way our science-loving culture tends to discount or invalidate the mystical and intuitive, the seemingly impossible and miraculous occurrences in our lives, you and I individually may easily doubt and question any evidence that God is indeed being born into your individual heart and life.   Yes; into yours.  Into mine.
But shifts do happen in our spirits as we grow closer to God.  The same as in the Christmas story, our spiritual growth is lead first by intuition and innocence.  “Why did you decide to stop in at that particular church, or pick up that particular book?”  But our intellect quickly takes the lead as facts and information accumulate.  Unfortunately, the intellect can be kind of clueless when it comes to feelings and intuition.  Sadly, once in charge, the intellect often invalidates feelings and intuition because it isn’t well designed to understand them and can feel a little threatened by them.  It happens all the time, and isn’t very helpful.  Intuition guides the intellect to what it needs, and then the intellect acts like it was in charge all the time and intuition is dumb.  Oh well.
In any case, for much of our spiritual journey we are more likely to be lead by ideas and concepts than by gut feelings and instinct.  That is okay.  That is how God designed the process of learning to happen for most of us.  This shows up in the Bible as Jacob taking pre-eminence over Esau, and as the stone temple replacing the soft, tent-like tabernacle.
But the same way Jacob wasn’t supposed to have contempt for or fear of Esau, we need to do our best to remember the strengths and gifts that our intuitive side brings to our life.  Our intellect can have a tendency to want to hoard and hold on to power, and to fear and invalidate the mystical, fluid, hard-to-box-up-and-measure qualities of our emotional side.  In the end, Esau will take his rightful place, but in the bulk of the Bible, Jacob’s story gets the limelight.
Our culture here in the West still remains pretty uncomfortable with feelings.  We have been told there are good feelings and bad feelings, excessive feelings, and inappropriate feelings.  But in the realm of psychology and therapy it has been known for a long time that there are no wrong feelings.  There can be hurtful behaviors, but all feelings are appropriate and make sense when we understand what drives them.  Our feelings can be amazingly wise teachers when we listen to them.  They point directly to the wounded parts and invite healing.  But for tonight just remember: feelings are never wrong.  They simply are.  Even if that concept drives the intellect crazy.  Accepting emotions and working with them works much better than judging and controlling them.
Your heart knows what it knows.  It is incredibly wise.  It doesn’t have to explain.  What it knows may not be easy to understand, rather like a virgin birth; but without our hearts, Jesus cannot be born.  By means of Mary, into a simple, mucky stable, full of humble, smelly animals, our God rushes with new life and light.  Birth is messy and perfect. Let us sing for joy.  Amen
Guided meditation 
Welcome to this holy and sacred and safe space.  I ask you to be still for these next few moments.  To pull up a stool and to sit by the manger, and to gaze into the eyes of the newborn God of the whole universe. This, our God, has come down right here, right now, into our tender and insecure lives.
Like the stable animals, all feelings are welcome here.  No one said, “the donkey isn't good enough or clean enough to be here,” no one said, “The camel is too noisy and grumpy to be here.”  God comes to us exactly as we are, how we are, and doesn't reject any parts of us as too unworthy to be present right where he is born. 
Just be here, no matter how you are feeling, or what you are thinking.  You are welcome here.  Perhaps this Christmas you are full of wonder and joy---the “right” feelings to be having this time of year.  But perhaps, like so many, you are feeling loss or deep sadness; you may be dealing with fresh and new grief, or perhaps old and aching losses from years past.  There is no wrong story to bring to the manger.  Whatever feelings press forward are the ones that most need the healing love that this infant brings.  Do not forbid them.  And no matter what feelings come, remember that you are not alone.  You are surrounded by love.  Tears are welcome here. 
As we sit and soak up the peace and the love and the complete acceptance that this new infant brings to our world, be accepting of every feeling.  Perhaps you are feeling anxious about time, or about money, or about choices that loved-ones are making.  You are normal, especially for this time of year, in this culture and economy.   I ask you just to be here.  Be here, and release self-judgment if you can.  Let’s all of us take a breath together. 
Sheep, goats, camels, chickens, angels….  Just for now, set your worries, judgments and distractions aside.  Put them down, in a box.  They will wait.  Just be here. Right here, right now, with people who love you, and want the best for you, and who are committed to walking beside you no matter what.  This community is where Jesus can be born.  Our Lord Jesus, Emanuel, God with us, is here, now.  Breathe this in. 
Glory to God in the highest, and deep peace to every human heart on earth.  Amen

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Can There Be Peace In Palestine?


This was written in response to a trip I was lucky to be part of in 2007.  I thought I would repost it as we witness renewed violence in in the Holy Land.  Regardless of what one thinks of the theology, the details remain true.

"Can There Be Peace in Palestine?
- reflections on my trip to Israel"
Alison Longstaff, August 26th, 2007
Church of the Good Shepherd
Psalm 122: 1-9; Matthew 24:1-13
                                                                                                     
            As many of you know, I went on a pilgrimage to the Holy Land this past Spring.   Because the Holy Land is not the most stable of regions, preparation for the trip included a day-long session on culture shock, cultural sensitivity and diversity, and post-traumatic-stress disorder, among other things.  In our information packets we found articles on how to recognize post-traumatic-stress disorder, both in ourselves and in our fellow travellers.  We learned that we could be affected by the general atmosphere of trauma-survival among the peoples we would be visiting.  We discussed how we should care for ourselves and each other should violence occur.  It was sobering.
            Above all, we were taught, "The situation in Palestine is complicated."  We must try to withhold judgment.  We must avoid taking sides, and instead, simply keep our eyes and ears open. Apparently, westerners characteristically assume that the problems over there could be easily fixed if someone just said the right thing or took charge the right way.   It is not so.
            I was immediately struck by the warmth with which the Israelis in the airport greeted us.  They welcome all visitors.  The arrival of tourists helps them not feel so isolated nor so judged and feared and cut-off from the rest of the world.  We also met our tour guide at the airport, a Palestinian Arab Christian Israeli.
(picture: The Lion's Gate in Jerusalem. Notice how bullet-riddled it is.)
            His name was Husam, not Hussein  but Husam.  He advised us to call him "Who? Sam?" to remember the correct pronunciation.  His name was as unfamiliar in my mouth as his identity was to grasp in my brain.  An Arab Christian Palestinian Israeli. He was an Arab, which is a blood-line or ethnicity, but he was not Muslim, like many Arabs are.  He was a Christian.  There are many Christians in the Holy land still, Christians descended from the Christians who have been there since the time of Jesus.  He is Palestinian, which means his family has lived in the Palestinian territories for centuries, but he is not a terrorist.  It is terribly unfortunate that the western media has somehow gotten many of us in the Western world to equate "Palestinian" with "terrorist." It is an emotional and fearful association and entirely uneducated.  There are so many good and peaceful Palestinians. To think every Palestinian is a terrorist is as accurate as thinking that, because I am a woman and a seminarian, all women are seminarians.  (Picture: Husam [white hat] talks to some of us on the school steps. See the clear, brilliant blue of the sky.)
            And, Husam was an Israeli.  Both a Palestinian and an Israeli?  At the same time?  Yes.  He was born to a Palestinian family in Palestinian territory, but he is one of the lucky few to have an Israeli passport.  He is recognized as a citizen of Israel.  Many Palestinians are not, for all sorts of reasons, which is a huge part of the problem over there.  But he is.  So He is an Arab Israeli Palestinian Christian.  Even he doesn't know where he fits.
            There are so many ways I could describe our travels over there.  I could speak of the land, the light, and the locations.  I could describe all the many churches vying to be sitting on the "original spot where" something religious maybe happened.  I could describe the crazy mix of old and new, and the march of time in a place nearly older than time.
            But I choose to describe my observations of the people of the land, the desperate religious sincerity, and the age-old battles for dominance and control.  I choose to describe both the beauty and courage, the resilience and hope in the face of the repeated failures of the peace efforts.  And the heart-breaking violence that seems to have a life of its own.  
(Next two pictures: school children, Christian and Muslim, playing soccer together in Ramallah. Will they also grow up to kill or be killed?) 
            At no time did we witness open violence.  We were never exposed to any real danger, ever.  But we witnessed evidence of the tension everywhere we looked.  From the thick razor-wire topped walls that Israel is unremittingly erecting around section after section of Palestinian territory, to the machine gun toting soldiers, to the bullet holes riddling the walls of Jerusalem, we could not help but be aware of the tension.
            These people have lived through things I can't even imagine.  We had to pass through heavily guarded check points.  We had our bus driver yelled at by an angry Israeli guard at one check point.  We had soldiers barely out of their teens march through our bus, examining our passports, machine guns slung on their hips.  One pulled off his sunglasses, and looked just like our neighbour's son, except he had darker hair. 
            Israel is a military state, and every young person must spend two years in the army.   Imagine if we lived there.  That would be every young person you know, taught to handle guns. To shoot to kill.  To obey orders.  To see violence as a common occurrence.  Jake and Sam, Stephanie, and Megan and Kate, Heather and Joshua. . . .  Both my girls, and eventually, Jordan.  And this, not in Canada, but in a country born in the holocaust, and shaped by a lifetime of hatred and oppression.  I simply can't comprehend it.
(picture: overlooking the school's playground in Ramallah) 
            We stayed in Bethlehem first, beyond the wall.  The Palestinians nearest Jerusalem live in some of the worst conditions.  Though our hostel was spacious, clean, and quiet, we saw the rubble and neglect in the streets.  The severe water restrictions were evident in the bathrooms though never shoved in our faces.  Some of us blithely and ignorantly took our long western showers, not realizing the desperate need for every drop behind the walls.  You see,  Bethlehem, a scarce five miles from Jerusalem, is Palestinian.  It is the distance of about eight kilometres from here to the St Jacobs farmers market or from here to Sports World.  For that matter, from here to the Carmel Church, our Swedenborgian cousins.  By now, development is as continuous between Jerusalem and Bethlehem as it is between Good Shepherd and St Jacobs.  It could be one big city except the Israelis have been and still are erecting a wall all around Bethlehem, and all around Ramallah, and around many other places.  Imagine having friends who lived near the St. Jacob's farmer's market who were walled in, and never allowed to leave.  Imagine them cut off from their jobs, their doctors, their families.  Imagine trying to invite them to a wedding or a funeral, and them being refused permission to come.  This is the reality of many Palestinians in Israel.  No wonder many have resorted to violence.  Some are cut off from their family vineyards which have been their livelihood for centuries.  It is arbitrary, cruel, and they are completely powerless.  There is 70% unemployment within these walled areas.
            Seeing the conditions behind the wall and hearing the stories, it was hard not to take sides against the Israelis.  On the first day, a group of us went to visit a Christian school in Ramallah.  Because our bus and tour company had all the right passes and papers, and because tourists bring welcome dollars to Israel, our bus was allowed to traverse the two heavily guarded check points in order to make this trip.  Ramallah, yes, the Ramallah in the news, is another stone's throw out the other side of Jerusalem.  We travelled from the dusty, broken, and run-down Palestinian streets of Bethlehem into the clean, new, well watered and beautifully landscaped Israeli neighbourhoods on the right side of the wall, and then back into the pock-marked, rubble-strewn, and neglected streets of Ramallah.
            We met some of the most courageous and called teachers and volunteers at this school, as in the many other Christian centres we visited.  The school in Ramallah has several hundred pupils from Kindergarten to about grade eight.  They are Muslim and Christian.  Yes, this school welcomes Muslim children, and educates them as Muslims.  The Muslims have separate religion classes from the Christians, but also, all the children have religion together once a week, where they learn about each other's religions as well as the many other religions of the world.  The Christian and Muslim families in these Palestinian territories are bound together by their shared hardship.  They want only peace, and for their suffering to end.
(Picture: Children cluster around Debbie Lou and others of us, including our tall photographer)
            Everything looked normal.  The children's happy voices rang out from the recess yard as we sat and spoke with the head teachers.  Debbie Lou, one of our group who is a music instructor at Wilfrid Laurier, went out to mingle with the children.  When the children learned that she loved music, they wanted to sing her their songs.  One little boy sang her "his song."  The interpreter described the story to Debbie Lou as the little boy happily performed his long composition.  It was a song about his grandfather, who was taken in the night from their home, by soldiers with guns.  It was about how he would never see his grandfather again, and it went on and on.
(Picture: in the crowd is the little boy singing to Debbie Lou.)

            The teachers told us that this type of song is a form of trauma therapy for the children.  That the primary task the teachers face, daily, is helping the children deal with the precariousness of their lives.  Almost nightly, Israeli soldiers come into some part of Ramallah and arrest someone or shoot up a home, occasionally just because they can.  It is a form of intimidation.  It is meant to keep the Palestinians off balance.
            The children come to school chattering about the soldiers being on their street in the night, much the way our kids might chatter about an extra violent thunderstorm or a tornado scare.  This is normal for them.  The safest place these children have is the school.  The teachers do everything they can to help the children, Christian and Muslim together, to feel safe and loved and cared for by God.  Even so, in 2002, the soldiers came to the school during the day. They blasted open the doors and shot up the walls.  When the teachers complained to Isreali officials afterwards they were told, "No one was hurt."
            "No one was hurt."  Imagine if a huge explosion rocketed those doors off their hinges and a mass of armed soldiers stormed in screaming and ordering everyone onto the floor, and then proceeded to shoot up our walls and windows.  Then after yelling at us all and calling us names like filthy terrorists, vile English, dirty Canadians, and threatening to kill us and our families, for several hours, they left. ? !  "No one was hurt," simply doesn't adequately describe the shock we all would have sustained
(picture: One of our Canadian peace-workers, one of the seminary professors, and the brave head teacher of the school.)
            Just looking at the blast-blackened and twisted front doors would be enough to bring all of the emotional trauma back.  And we would be left to pick up the shattered glass, and see our dear sanctuary all bullet-riddled, and try to decide how to go on.
            This is one tiny piece of one tiny reality in all of the stories and sights we heard.  I haven't even told you about the three empty dialysis chairs awaiting children who would never show up that day at the hospital.  The guards at the check-points refused three children permission to come get their dialysis treatments at the hospital.  It makes no sense.  Three children, who would be dead in two days if they are not allowed through the wall to the hospital for their treatments.  That was four months ago.  Are any of them still alive?
            If I think too much about it all, I get choked up.
(picture: The head teacher and some students.)
            The same day that we visited that hospital, we went to the holocaust museum.  We only had a half-hour for the museum, which needed at least three.  I could barely take it in.  I sat and wept and wept.  That night, tempers erupted in our group.  There was shouting and accusations resulting in withdrawal and tears.  We were all dealing with more than we could handle.  The scope of the human on human abuse and horror was more than we were capable of comprehending.  We were shattered.
(Picture:The school pastor looks on and our Canadian tour director talks to the head teacher.)
            We are very sheltered here in Canada.  And we kid ourselves if we think we are incapable of the behaviours we heard of and saw in Israel.  Everyone of us, under the same conditions, would exhibit much the same behaviours.  Just witness the small violence of barking, hurtful accusations that arose in our tiny, peaceful, Canadian group after the one day of witnessing the hospital and the holocaust museum.  We were overwhelmed.  The helplessness and grief had to pour out somehow.  We were able to apologize and heal within 24 hours.  These people are dealing with a legacy of trauma and violence that spans generations, crosses cultures, and touches every one of us.  It's not going to be a simple fix.
            Though it is understandable, the fact of the holocaust does not give Israel a right to bully and oppress the Palestinians.  A battered wife will take a long time, a LONG time before she will trust a man to treat her kindly.  How much more is Israel a battered wife?  The horror of the generations of abuse must work its way out somehow, and it will take time.
            "O Jerusalem, Jerusalem. . . .  How often I wanted to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not ready." (Matt 23:27)
            Before we become too depressed by the stories we've explored together today, before we decide that it is all hopeless and horrible, let's remember that God was born into this very place.  He did not and will not give up on us, though He himself, his beauty and love and truth was spoken into this darkness and treated much the same way.  Standing with and bearing the horror, and still staying open to love is the way out.  And I need not go to Israel to do this work.  I can find it readily in my own family and neighbourhood, and yes, even in our church.
            When you and I work to face and, without passing on the harm, express and release the hurts and little traumas and small betrayals we face within our lives here and now, we are helping to strengthen the great global consciousness of peace and forgiveness.  It has long been known that abuse will be passed on and on until someone is strong enough to stop the transmission.  The abuse will stop when the human race is ready and strong enough and conscious enough to stop it.  AND, what you and I do in our hearts, here and now, today, makes a difference.  Forgiving my brother, my sister, my father, for abuses and hurts in my family, is the way I help the world move toward forgiveness. (picture: watching the children at play)

            Yes, there are many active and hands-on ways we can try to help in Israel.  They need help.  They particularly need volunteers who speak Arabic.  I can put you in touch with any number of ways to provide support and caring if you feel called.
            But more than that, you and I can stand, hand in hand, and believe in peace and forgiveness.  You and I can look fearlessly into the horror and hopelessness and speak love into the darkness.  We are not alone in the desire for peace.  We have God on our side.  And God is infinitely patient and infinitely healing.  If our hearts break at the sights and stories, God's heart breaks a thousand times more.  But while we become weighed down by hopelessness, God has never given up and never will give up.  He knows what He's doing.  Nothing, absolutely nothing is hopeless in God's care.
            As we read in Jeremiah:
For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord,
plans for your welfare and not for harm,
to give you a future with hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)
            Thank you for listening.  Amen.
Special music  Calling All Angels    by Jane Siberry

Saturday, October 27, 2012

The value of THE TRUTH, or "Was Jesus Married?"


The following is adapted from a recent assignment in seminary. The professor used an actual event from his own life to ask us to examine and put into words our own faith in response to such a situation.

Spiritual Reflection #2

By Alison Longstaff
For TH680 A
October 26th , 2012

The Scenario
     Maria and Susan have been colleagues for 10 years. They know each other very well and often enjoy their conversations while working at the Air Canada Check‐In counter at Pearson International Airport. Maria is from the Philippines and Susan from a small town in southwestern Ontario. They like to talk about current affairs. It is two o’clock in the afternoon when I arrive at their counter to check in for my flight.
       “So where are you headed?” asked Maria.
       “To a conference,” I responded.
       “Oh, that must be interesting. What do you do?” Maria continued.
       “I teach at a theological school,” I said. “It is a theological conference.”
With absolutely no one behind me and no one at Susan’s counter, Maria went on, “Really, that is interesting. We were just talking about Karen King; you know the one that found this old document that said Jesus was married.”
      “Oh yes,” I said, “I read about that in the newspaper.”
       Maria said, “She went running off to the press with all that stuff before she checked it out. Remember the St. James’ Ossuary (Burial Box)? It was a fake in the end. The Vatican sayes this document is a forgery too. I am a lifelong Catholic. I know what I believe, but Susan says ‘What does it matter?’ So you’re a theologian. What do you think?”
Here is my response for the professor, grade TBD.
     The question of whether Jesus was married or not typically threatens a long-held and well-established point of faith for many. It is possible that for one or both of these women the deeper question might be, “If ‘the church’ (the Vatican, the Pope, authorities through the ages, their own trusted ministers, etc) has been wrong about this all these years, what else have they been wrong about?” Looked at this way, my response could threaten the spiritual foundations of anyone still reliant on an official outside authority to define what they should believe (as opposed to their own personal, internalized synthesis of faith). That is, of course, if they didn't dismiss me out of hand, as I am neither a Catholic, nor even a man. The very fact that this original scenario was encountered by a mature, Anglo-Saxon male with a beard already changes the significance of how my response will be weighted by the questioners.

      Nevertheless, this situation calls me to examine how I view my role in relation to such casual yet deeply significant questions. I will likely never see these women again, and it is not my desire in any way to undermine their need to believe what they already believe. My heart desire is to support people in formulating their own faith in intelligent, conscious, and well-informed ways, and not simply to impose my understanding on them. While on the one hand I want to give them a response that invites them to continue to deepen their faith intelligently, on the other hand I do not want to so challenge their faith that they are thrown into crisis.
      Therefore, as I look into the eyes of these women, I must ask myself this: What is the most pastoral response that I can give, knowing that I am seen as a “religious authority figure,” and specifically not wanting my answer to stir up contention between them or precipitate a crisis of faith in the questioners?

Foundations
      My natural teaching style is to lead any student to their own understanding by reflecting a question back to them in a respectful and inviting way. A person’s own attempt to articulate what he or she believes helps them understand and integrate their own beliefs more deeply. I wish to show respect for both Susan and Maria’s faith traditions --- to do no violence to either one’s sacred beliefs while being yet true to my own tradition and formulation.
      Further, I am Swedenborgian and a psych undergrad. For me, spiritual and psychological development is entwined and inseparable. James Fowler’s stages of faith development shapes my pastoral response to these women. Fowler’s findings echo statements in Swedenborg’s own material, written over two-hundred years earlier.[1] If I could know for certain where each woman was in her spiritual journey, I could shape my response accordingly. But I cannot.
         In terms of my own doctrinal integrity in addressing the significance of whether Jesus was married or not, my tradition has two points that speak to this. First is the teaching that Sacred Scripture holds a continuous deep inner meaning. [2] This belief frees me from worrying about any literal accuracy, as the integrity and value lies in the inner meaning, not the letter. What may or may not be historically accurate is a curiousity to me, but in no way threatens the foundations of my faith. Secondly, Swedenborg promotes throughout his theology that marriage is a metaphor for the spiritually evolved or “regenerated” human. Marriage represents the inner union within a person’s psyche of intellect and heart, or true integrity---the intellect is suffused with a deep sense of love and connectedness with the rest of humanity, while the heart is steered toward useful service by the intellect. Jesus being “married” makes absolute sense to me through the lens of this metaphor. On the other hand, it has been in God’s providence so far that we have primarily believed that Jesus was unmarried. I trust God’s leadership and timing, and the detail of Jesus’ marital status is not significant to me.
             Finally, I also believe strongly that what we believe is not as important as how we live. This is also supported in Swedenborg.[3] Looking this way at the effect of my beliefs on my living was brought home to me during a lively debate with friends a few years ago. The question was whether or not hell was eternal. After debating back and forth within this group one dear friend said at last, “All I know is that believing that God gives us as long as we need to get straightened out, instead of us having to get it right in our short time on earth makes me a kinder, gentler human being.”


That one statement revolutionized the way I go about examining my beliefs. When my core value is the Golden Rule, the question, “In what way does this belief affect how I treat my neighbour?” is of more value to me than whether it is the “perfect truth.” Swedenborg would say that any truth that is not softened and informed by love ceases to be true anyway, no matter how accurate it is.[4]

I will leave it there. My response would be pastoral according to what and how these women responded to me. I would invite these women to tell me more about their beliefs, and I would respond further according to the tensions and unmet needs I might sense within their answers. For my part, it isn't about what is “THE TRUTH.” It is about what these two souls need from me to be more peaceful, more fulfilled, and more wisely loving. That is my job in this encounter, and that is all.




[1] Swedenborg describes at least four stages of faith or “regeneration” loosely paralleling Fowler’s six stages, in Arcana Coelestia (henceforth cited as AC) §3603:3
[2] This is most succinctly described in Swedenborg’s De Verbo, §1 and following.
[3] Swedenborg promotes “charity” or loving-kindness first.  Kindness without wisdom still comes from the heart, whereas faith not lived in acts of service is seen as dead. AC §7884 and AC §1100
[4] Beliefs not informed by love actually slay loving-kindness as Cain slew Abel. AC §369


 References

Fowler, James W. (1981). Stages of faith : the psychology of human development and the quest for meaning. San Francisco: Harper and Row.

Swedenborg, E. (1983). Arcana Coelestia (J. Elliot Trans.). London, England: Swedenborg Society. (1748).

Swedenborg, E. (1934). De Verbo (J. Chadwick Trans.). London, England: Swedenborg Society. (1762).
A Note About Page Numbers in citations from Swedenborg Text citations from Swedenborg=s material do not refer to page numbers but to passage or paragraph numbers.  This numbering system is used consistently throughout all his editions. Citations may include Name of Publication as Translated, date the translation came to print, name of the translator from the Latin, and the passage number preceded by the symbol §.